When I look into her eyes I see the violence of a life disappointed – the crush of society and the comedown of feeble Men. I see those pupils glowing amber in the sunset and red for the rest of the time. I know about the Bowie knife inside her jeans and I know about the expulsion from school as a teenager for trying to hang a boy who lifted up her skirt.
In arguments, I see her sometimes reach for the blade, but she toys with the hilt as a stress relief. She tells me I’m fucking other women, I tell her she’s destroying other men, and neither of these things are true. She only kills boys – those not worth losing sleep over – and the rest of us have to keep our guard up.
She told me; I have this weird dream where I wake up paralysed, and I feel my flesh melting into the bed, and then through the floor, and then I somehow become… I dunno….at ‘one’ with the world. I can hear plants growing and the soil turning and the plates of the Earth floating and bumping. And then I wake up, and I realise I can move, and I feel sad. She looks at me with an invisible question hanging between us. I wish I knew the answer she needed. I wish I knew the question.
One day I will confess the big ‘L’ I feel about her….
I want her always, so I can ‘Live’.
©️ Jimmi Campkin
Original photograph by Jimmi Campkin
She looks at me with an invisible question hanging between us. I wish I knew the answer she needed. I wish I knew the question.
What a close….great piece!
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Thank you very much Sabrina 🙂
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Nobody else writes like you, Jimmi. I really have missed reading your words. x
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❤️
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Thank you Allane ❤ I hope I am back for good
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This is magic Jimmi. Always a pleasure to read your work.
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Such an amazing writing
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Jimmi is incredible ❤️
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Yes seems like.Will dig for more of his.
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Please do!
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